I love you.

With all my heart and all my soul.

I'm always going to be here. I promise.

Trust me?

Oh.

Uhm.

Wow.

Just wow.

Lots of wow.

Some 'fuck-wow!' too.

I get the strangest feeling he doesn't trust me... I mean, I don't blame him, we hardly know each other. But it feels like we do, yanno? Like I've known him for fuckin' years. I could easily tell him anything without even thinking about it.

I'm just worried. I want him to know I'm never, ever, ever going to hurt him, but I don't know how to say it without sounding like a total fangirl loser.

And... I think I love him.... and that's...bad? I don't know. Hell, I jsut discovered I'm bi and I'm head over fuckin heels with this guy...

Oh God he's so beautiful...

What do I do?

Date:	2006-05-13 11:15
Subject:	I'm scared. That's a new emotion for me.
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused
Music:	Billy Idol - Rebel Yell

So.. I don't even wanna be here. Or I didn't. Who the god-damn-fuck do my parents think they are? I'm 19 for fucks sake! I should be able to control my own life by now right?

But it seems I can't. I can't eevn trusts my own decisions anymore. My own instincts.

I was so set on hating it here. So set on fucking up as much as physically possible. Then I saw him... and saw him smile just a little.. and it doesn't seem so bad.

It seems worth the fuckin' lectures.

And the weirdest thing is... he's a he. Since when have I decided that I'd stick around for a guy?

No matter if he's an insanely hot guy or not.

And I so didn't just think that.

Fuck...

I think I'm gonna go skate now...

- Bam x